I've determined to make more posts to my Family Blog this year. I enjoy reading some of yours and figured my 6 followers might enjoy the tiny insights into my home, too. :)
I have started an Audio Diary for each of my kids this year. They are always spontaneous and include my current feelings/inspirations/love, etc. for each kiddo. I am very forgetful and want to make sure my babies always know how much Mommy loved and cherished them, in case I don't tell them enough. I dream about them being grown and listening back on these Audio Diaries recorded by their young mother and cherishing these audio files. Who really knows if they will even care, though, right? LOL!
Anyways, I felt inspired to record one for Brooklea tonight and funny thing was...God spoke to me through my own words of wisdom to my child. It went something like this...
"Brooklea, I was just thinking how much I love you and how special you are. I was just thinking back on how you went to VBS with your friend the other night. And, how hard it was for you to venture out and actually go with her! And, remember a couple days ago they invited you to come down for her cousins birthday party where they had a water slide? You were so nervous about going because you were afraid there were going to be tons of people there you didn't know. I encouraged you to just walk down and check it out; that Mommy would be with you the whole way. You finally agreed, but assured me you were NOT staying! I told you not to make any decisions in that moment until you had all the details of the situation. As soon as you got past your fears and got involved, you turned to me and said, "Bye, Mom!" And, again, after we convinced you to go to VBS, you told me upon pickup, "Mom, I am SOOOOO going tomorrow!!" You don't know how proud I was of you in those moments!! The feeling that came over me as a Mother, knowing I did the right thing in gently pushing you past your limits. And, that's one of our job as parents, to push you past your supposed limit. Not in a tormenting, spiteful way. But, to help you break those barriers and conquer your fears! You can do so much more! You can accomplish so much more! You can overcome so much more than you think you can!
And, that's how God is, too. He pushes us to what we think are our limits, but it's really not the limit. It's just to help us build new confidence; to show us that we can overcome certain obstacles that seem so big in our lives at the moment. To step out into those new territories that are unfamiliar and makes us trust in Him even more!"
I know I have been there so many times in my life, even recently. Questioning God and feeling forsaken. But, I realize tonight He was just gently pushing me past my own limitations into new territories in Him. And, He can be trusted, Friend. If we do fall in these uncharted territories, just know He will be right there to catch us. We can trust in Him!!
